ok so yesterday i had the biggest break down ive had in years and years! recently my grandpa got sick and well i thought i was handling it all until yesterday wen i broke down! all i wanted was a hug from one of my really good friends at school! or at least for them to notice that something was up but no the only person that noticed was a friend who i hardly ever see any more! and the last thing that i wanted today was for soem one to say to me "its your fault!" im sick of it! i know every thing that happens to me that is wrong is "all my fault" but just for once i want people to realise that tust me i already tell my self enough that its all my fault i dont need reassurance from my friends! any way i must run now to go do one of the biggest exams of my life! i might edit this later deppending on how stressed i am tonight! any way for those who have actaully taken the effort to read this craptacular journal entry have a good day!

love morgs!